Dark Days

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This year has definitely been one crazy ride... And there are days when I find myself thinking about when days were so much simpler than they are now... The days when even for a second I was happy... Granted that I don't have very many of those days to look back on... My life is full of dark, depressing days... Days where I don't even want to get up in the morning, but I force myself to get up, I force myself to take on the day and force myself to show people that i am not fragile... I mean I am... But it doesn't matter if I'm the only one that knows it... What does it matter anyway?

Have you ever found yourself just sitting in class and your mind just drifts to a totally different place? You find yourself constantly looking for a safe place to hide from the world around you? Do you ever just wonder why? Why things happen the way they do? Why you end up where you ended up? Why all of these bad things happen to you?

My entire life all I've known is pain, I'm so shy and quite I can barely talk... Once you first meet me... I have so many things to say... But I don't know how to say them... And I don't know how people will react to the things I have to say... So I stay quiet...

I believe in things that not everyone else believes in like you should never judge someone unless you actually truly know them... People are a mystery to me... But I always notice things other people don't... I always find myself looking at things rationally and things artistically... I don't know where it came from I've just always had a love for writing, drawing, dancing... Anything artistic... I love it all...

I always see things differently than other people... Maybe because all of the pain has somehow made me ten times stronger that everyone else... And I can see the problem before they do... I guess it's one of my special talents... Art... Although I could not draw to save my life... Music is also a really big part of my life, it's helped me through so many tough times... Art was my escape from the world around me... An escape from my problems... Everyone needs an escape from the dark days...

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