Into The World Of A Teenage Mind

It's official! I have made it through the first month of Senior year, in my opinion it went by too fast... Am I the only one that thinks so? It's hard to believe that once June approaches I will be graduating and off to college, I mean there is so much to do before June. SATS, Applying for colleges, acceptance letters, Prom... So much to do before the day arrives. I honestly believe that everyone at some point throughout the year thinks back to that first day of Freshman year, the first time they walked through those doors, the nervous/excited feeling that bubbled up inside of them. This is some of the last times that we will be with our classmates. So I'm going to make the most of it, I'm going to have more fun with my friends while I figure out where I want to go for college and what I want to do with my life after high school... I've already made it too that step, I know where I want to go and who I want to be, but I know that there are some people who don'...

There's something that I have been thinking a lot about lately... Growing up... It's really scary, yet so much fun to plan out the next chapter in my life... College, I'm terrified, yet excited to graduate high school and move on to college... My Senior year starts in exactly 2 and a half month... Junior year was grueling, they say that Junior year is the hardest year of your high school career, that is a given fact, take it from me... My grades weren't the best this year... But I will work hard when the next school year rolls around... My point is... Life gets hard sometimes... I didn't have the best life growing up... But i never let my past get in the way of my future... I'll admit sometimes I fall down and I don't want to get back up, but then I remember what I'm working for... I want to become a journalist... I want to be a voice for the people that are too afraid too speak up, they are too afraid of what others will say... Believe me, I'm rig...

So, Some of my friends have been asking me to write about boys... Just for clarification, I've never had a boyfriend but most of my friends come to me for advice. They say it helps... Anyway, I usually just tell them to follow their hearts, cause that's the most important thing in these types of situations, us girls may be fragile and frail, but we're also smart and head strong, we have emotions yes, but why should we let a guy rule how we see ourselves? If they don't like us for who we really are inside then screw 'em. Guys can be so weird... I mean you never really know what's going on inside their heads while we're sitting there trying to look pretty going "Does he like me? Does he like me?" And then we wonder what the hell is wrong with us when we find out that he doesn't like you the way you like him... High school is stressful enough we don't need a guy to add on to that stress, but hey... We're only human... It's Human na...

Why Did She Start A Blog? I'm not very good at the whole blogging thing I mean why should I share my inner most thoughts for everyone to see? why am I even writing a blog? why am I sitting here with my laptop writing this post? why am I asking you all these questions? it's simple I simply love to write, I can write anything whenever I am given a writing assignment in school i'm pretty sure i'm the only one in the entire class who is super excited about that three page essay, but this isn't about me, this blog is for all of you who don't have a voice, this is simply my thoughts on my peers... What I have to say. Let's be honest here I know that you all probably have something better to do then read this blog and I'm probably just wasting my time even thinking about writing one. But I think it'll be fun. So let's start shall we? here is a little bit about me. I am sixteen years old, I love to read and I love to write, my favorite color is blue...

Why is it that all of my girlfriends come to me for guy advice? I mean I don't even know the first thing about these kinds of situations, my friends claim that my advice does help, but sometimes I feel like I didn't help at all. This is not my forte, I'm the shy quiet girl who can barely even talk to a cute guy, let alone give advice about them, Why do we get so engrossed in a guy? I mean what's so special about falling in love? Coming from someone who's only example is all of the boyfriends my mom has had, and then seeing my best friends getting their hearts broken because of some stupid guy... What's up with that? Why is it so important? When my girls tell me that A guy broke up with them and I have to see how much pain they're in all I want to do is punch the guy in the face, but my girlfriends always make me promise not to get involved because they know how I get... I always get so irritated. What is wrong with our generation of guys? They take a smart...

This year has definitely been one crazy ride... And there are days when I find myself thinking about when days were so much simpler than they are now... The days when even for a second I was happy... Granted that I don't have very many of those days to look back on... My life is full of dark, depressing days... Days where I don't even want to get up in the morning, but I force myself to get up, I force myself to take on the day and force myself to show people that i am not fragile... I mean I am... But it doesn't matter if I'm the only one that knows it... What does it matter anyway? Have you ever found yourself just sitting in class and your mind just drifts to a totally different place? You find yourself constantly looking for a safe place to hide from the world around you? Do you ever just wonder why? Why things happen the way they do? Why you end up where you ended up? Why all of these bad things happen to you? My entire life all I've known is pain, I'm ...

So, a lot of stuff has happened since my last post... A lot of messed up stuff that i'm not really in to talking about... It's second semester of my Junior year... This year has been a really huge strain... more stressful then second semester of Sophomore year... I had to move to a new school with all new people... As a shy girl... That's the most scariest thing... A new school... Add in all of the drama I've been dealing with from my mom... I really can't wait until i graduate next year, i mean who else feels this way? Who else feels like their entire life is just crashing down... I'm thankful for the new start, but the stress of having to adjust to this new school, to all new faces... I mean i'm ready for my future to begin because it gives me a fresh start, but I'm also scared of what the world outside. I mean every teen can't wait until they are on their own so they can start the next chapter in their lives, and i know it's only 6 hours away,...